Wednesday, December 31, 2008

24-7 Darkness (Revisited)

One of my professors asked me what is it like to be in the dark 24-7. Up until that very moment, I hadn't really thought about it. After taking about 15 seconds to process her question and formulate some type of answer, I took a deep breath and finally replied, "Um, I don't know.”

Strangely enough, I really don't think about it in terms of 24-7 darkness. I define blindness as the inability to see. And I guess that includes light. But if I really took the time to focus on the blanket of darkness that wraps around me, I probably would lose it. The very thought of 24-7 darkness is so darn depressing.

Now that I've taken time to really think about my professor’s question, I better understand how I truly feel about this "24-7 darkness that supposedly surrounds me." The truth is that I actually ignore the darkness.

Let me explain, if I can. There's no way possible for me to ignore my blindness. It is what it is. I can't escape it, even if I wanted to. I can't ignore it, pretend that it's not there, or take a break from it for a day.

But the darkness on the other hand, I don't have to give it my attention. Instead, I can use my mind to create visual images of the things that are in my physical presence. I can use my mind to daydream about beautiful places I would like to visit, intriguing people I would like to meet, and a wonderfully fine man to take me on one of my many dream vacations. I can use my mind to remember all of the beautiful experiences that I've had in my lifetime. I can use my mind to imagine what my darlings, Jasmine, Gabby, and Joseph look like.

So, with that being said, I'm not in the dark 24-7. I use my mind to ignore the darkness, and to instead create light.

I guess I should let my professor know my new answer to her question.


Kit (Keep It Trill) said...

I love what you said, "I'm not in the dark 24-7. I use my mind to ignore the darkness, and to instead create light."

Also, I wish you a Happy New Years.

~ Kit

sacredly breathing said...

wonderful answer. Our minds aren't time bound. We all use visual images when trying to remember something. Also I would imagine you have a heightened clarity of sound and a better attention to detail of what's being said.

Angie-Nuvision said...

Thanks KIT! And I wish you a blessed, prosperous, and peaceful 2009! Keep coming back and blessing me with your wisdom.

Sacredly breathing: Yes, I pay closer attention to sound than others. Not sure if I can hear better. But my listening skills have certainly improved since I've been blind. No doubt...
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