Thursday, June 14, 2007

Tears

I cried so much as a teen, I find it difficult to cry now that I'm an adult. I still hurt, and i still feel the pressure of life on my back. But for whatever reason, I very seldom shed tears anymore.

But tonight, I did. I, for the first time in quite a long time, wept while I was talking to my friend, Miko. As I was trying to express how I was feeling, I, without warning, started crying. And no matter how I tried to hold it back, the tears broke free from my blind eyes and made themselves visible.

There are some issues that I'm facing that I can't get into on this blog. And those issues are causing me to feel so stressed and anxious. I'm actually disappointed in myself for being so negatively effected by the issue. But I am.

After I cried, I gathered myself and remembered that it's okay for me to cry. I try so hard to be tough, together, and unmoved by tribulation. But the fact is, there are times that I feel so pressed that I just can't take it anymore. This is one of those times.

Now that I've released the tears, I feel better. I feel strong. I feel new. Yes, I still feel tired and sick of what's going on. But I feel like I have my second wind. I feel like I can make it. I know I can...

I'm going to overcome this giant. I just got to find the right rocks, sling, and opportunity to make my move.

Once the giant is on the ground, I'll feel more comfortable disclosing the identity of the giant. But until then, keep me in your prayers.

Love,

Angela

4 comments:

Maxjulian said...

I hope that what you are going through is manageable. And I will pray for you.

Angela L. Braden said...

Brotha, thanks for your prayers.

Is it manageable? I think it is.

I'll be alright. I just have to keep my focus in tact. As long as I have my eyes locked on the goal, I'm good. If I vear, I'll suffer in the long run.

rikyrah said...

Angie,

I'll keep you in my prayers. Sometimes, though, a good cry helps you release.

Asabagna said...

Peace, love and blessings!